I have a confession to make, right off the bat. I don't know what you were doing at 16, but I'm a really big fan of "Harry Potter" and was waiting way too long to receive my letter inviting me to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry -- I could have gone for sixth form. I was also waiting for an invitation to the Jedi Temple or a tap on the shoulder to invite me to the X-Men. I was that kid.
我马上要坦白一件事。 我不知道你们 16 岁时在做什么, 但我是哈利波特的铁粉, 并且我一直在等着收到 邀我去霍格沃茨魔法学校的信—— 我本可以去读第六级的。 我也在等待去绝地圣殿的邀请, 或被人拍一下我的肩膀, 邀请我加入 X 战警。 我就是那样的孩子。
When I was 16 years old, I got my wish. I was taken into a doctor's office and told that I am in fact part of a group of people who are still largely invisible and misunderstood. I am intersex. That's my superpower.
当我 16 岁时,我的愿望实现了。 我被带到医生办公室, 被告知说我其实属于 很大程度上仍然 很隐秘并被误解的某类人。 我是间性人。 这就是我的超能力。
For many of you in this room, it will be the first time you've even heard the word "intersex." Intersex is anatomy. It refers to people who were born with one or more of a variation of sex characteristics. That's your genitals, your hormones, your chromosomes that fall outside of the traditional conceptions of male and female bodies. In other words, the most basic assumption we've made about our species -- what we're taught in schools that sex is binary, just male and female -- is not correct. Like most things in this world, it is much more complicated than that.
对这里的大多数人, 应该是第一次听到“间性”这个词。 间性是解剖学术语。 它指那些生来拥有一种或多种 性别特征变体的人。 你的生殖器、荷尔蒙、染色体, 它们不属于传统的 男性或女性的身体概念。 也就是说, 我们对人类的最基本假定—— 我们在学校时 被告知性别是二元的, 只有男性和女性—— 这个说法并不正确。 就像世上大多其他事情, 真相要复杂得多。
Intersex people who fall outside of this false sex binary have always existed, throughout human history. Like the wizards of "Harry Potter," we are pretty much invisible. Some of us don't even know that we are intersex. Like the X-Men, some of our traits are obvious at birth and others turn up around the time when puberty is supposed to kick in. When we find out we are intersex, some of us believe we are the only ones in the world.
错误的二元性别范畴之外的间性人 在人类历史上一直存在。 就像《哈利波特》里的巫师, 我们几乎是隐形的。 我们有些人甚至不知道 自己是中间性人。 就跟 X 战警一样, 我们中有些人的生理特征 出生时就很明显, 还有一些在青春期初期出现。 当我们发现自己是间性人时, 有些人会认为 自己是世上的唯一。
Me, specifically, I have XY chromosomes, which you may have understood to be typically male. I was also born with gonads instead of ovaries. Standing here on this stage would have been my worst nightmare only five years ago. It would have been impossible.
就我而言,我有 XY 染色体, 一般会理解为我是男性。 我也生来就有性腺, 而不是卵巢。 如果在五年前, 站在这个舞台上对我来说 可能会是最糟糕的噩梦, 甚至是完全不可能的。
I use the metaphor of the superhuman, but really, we are just like you. Intersex people are thought to make up to 1.7 percent of the population. That means more, depending on where you are in the world, but you get the picture. We are in front of you, getting coffee; we are sitting next to you on the train; we are swiping you left and right on dating apps --
我用了超人来比喻我们, 但事实上,我们跟你们一样。 间性人占总人口的 1.7%。 也就是有很多, 取决于你在哪里, 但是大家应该都有概念了。 我们就在你们面前买咖啡; 我们在火车上,坐在你旁边; 我们在约会软件上 将你左滑右滑——
(Laughter)
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So why haven't you heard of us? If we are so common, why don't you see us? How has the world responded to us?
那么,你们为什么没听说过我们? 如果我们如此平常, 为什么你们看不见我们? 世界对我们的态度如何?
We often think of disciplines like medicine and the law as supposedly neutral -- immune to bias. The law is "reason free from passion." The doctors' Hippocratic oath states that "warmth, sympathy and understanding may outweigh the surgeon's knife or the chemist's pill." In truth, these disciplines that touch our lives are impressive, but they are filled with our prejudices. They are not immune, just as we are not immune to the effects of that prejudice, which can be devastating.
我们通常会觉得 医学或法律这样的领域 应该是中立的—— 对偏见免疫—— 法律是“毫无激情的推理”。 医生们的希波克拉底誓言声称: “温暖、同情和理解 可能远胜于外科医生的手术刀 或药剂师的药片。” 这些充斥在我们生活中的各种信条 很令人印象深刻, 事实上, 它们却充满了我们的偏见。 它们不是免疫的, 正如我们无法对那些偏见的影响 免疫一样, 这可能是灾难性的。
In medicine, intersex babies who are born with ambiguous genitalia are routinely operated on without consent, without medical need, irreversibly, in order to make their healthy anatomy appear more "normal." This is before they've even said their first words, indicated a sexuality or a gender identity.
在医学上, 出生时生殖器不明确的间性婴儿 通常会在未经同意, 且本来无需医疗的情况下, 被不可逆转地 进行手术, 就是为了让他们健康的身体 看起来更“正常”。 这发生在他们能开口说第一个字, 能表明性取向和性别认同之前。
Many people are never told the truth about their intersex traits, and those who are are instructed, often, not to tell anyone. Secrecy is enforced and shame is a close shadow. In the law, intersex people fall outside of categorization, and more importantly, protection. This concerns the banal tasks -- if you can imagine the number of forms you've filled out that you had to check "M" of "F" on -- to lacking protection under any law, specifically, the Gender Recognition or Equality Act. And intersex people cannot correct the sex classification they've been given at birth unless they declare they are transgender. After decades of activism, these life-altering problems are starting to be addressed.
很多人从没被告知 他们是间性人这个事实, 而那些被告知的人,也被指导, 别去告诉任何人。 保密是被强加的, 羞耻则如影随形。 在法律上, 间性人不在分类范围内, 更重要的是,也不被保护。 这包括那些平常琐事—— 如果你能想象 在你要填写的那些表格上 不得不勾选“男”或“女”—— 缺乏任何法律的保护, 具体来说 就是性别承认或平等法案。 间性人无法纠正 他们在出生时被给与的性别分类, 除非他们宣称他们是跨性别者。 经过数十年的运动, 这些改变人生的问题开始被重视。
So why does this matter to those of you who aren't intersex, who don't have variations of sex characteristics? I imagine many people in this audience have, in the privacy of their own bathrooms, wondered ... "Are my labia too long?" "Are my testicles uneven?" "Is my penis too small?" "Is my vagina too wide or too shallow?" Nothing that hurts or gets in the way, just aesthetically: "Are mine 'normal?'" I imagine that many people in this audience have those small concerns but generally go about their lives not thinking about it. These variations in our bodies, like the color of our eyes or the size of our feet, rarely affect our health, materially.
那这对于你们这些 性别特质没发生变体的非间性人, 为什么也很重要呢? 我想在座的很多人 在浴室里的时候, 都曾经好奇过… “我的阴唇太长吗?” “我的睾丸不一样吗?” “我的阴茎太小了吗?” “我的阴道是太宽还是太窄?” 这些都无伤大雅,只关乎美观: “我的‘正常’吗?” 我想在座很多人有过类似小担忧, 但通常都不会 对日常生活造成太大的困扰。 我们间性人体内的变异, 就像眼睛不同的颜色 或者脚不同的大小, 也并不会对我们的健康 产生实质的影响。
To put it another way, to give you an idea of the intersex experience, what if when you were an infant, your parents or your doctors looked at your labia, your penis, your testicles, and thought, "They're healthy, feeling, but they're not 'normal,'" even before you knew what you wanted to do with them, or you know, want to put them.
换句话说, 为了让你们体会间性人的感受, 可以假设你现在是个婴儿, 你的父母或医生 看着你的阴唇、 你的阴茎、睾丸, 在想, “它们很健康,功能完好, 但不‘正常’,” 这甚至发生在你知道自己 要怎样处理它们之前, 或者说, 想要把它们放到哪里之前。
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What if they went so far as to assign you a different sex based off these measurements ... And then they lied to you about what they'd done? What if these surgeries sterilized you? What if they resulted in immense pain and scarring? What if you had to take medicine for the rest of your life to replace the healthy organs they took away, and you had to pay for that medicine yourself? And then every time you went to a doctor's office for a cold, you were questioned about your sex life, your gender identity, what your private parts looked like. And then more doctors and medical students were invited to add to these questions, ask you to drop your trousers or submit to an unnecessary medical exam.
如果他们矫枉过正到 基于这些量度就给你 分配了另一种性别… 然后还针对这些所作所为撒谎呢? 如果这些手术 让你绝育了怎么办? 如果它们导致了剧痛和疤痕呢? 如果你余生必须吃药 来补偿被切除的健康器官, 并且你得自己掏医药费呢? 然后,每次你感冒去看医生时, 你的性生活, 你的性别身份, 你私处的样子都会被质疑。 然后更多的医生和 医学院学生被邀请来 问更多的问题, 要你脱掉裤子 或接受不必要的医学检查。
This is a picture of what is happening to the intersex community -- people like me, every day, around the world. Our community is not antimedicine or antisurgery. We are for the right to make decisions about our bodies and our lives. The current approach to intersex people stems from a now-debunked academic study from a man who, over 50 years ago, believed that you could raise a child in any gender by changing their genitals, never telling them and reinforcing that gender over and over again. It also stems from referring to healthy intersex variations as abnormal or disordered. This makes sense. If you refer to something as a disorder, it suggests there's a fix. It also stems [from] the fear and stigma of being intersex, from homophobia, transphobia, sexism and ultimately, our colonial past.
这是发生在间性人群体中的画面—— 全球各地像我这样的人, 每天都要面对的画面。 我们的群体并不反对医药或手术。 我们是想要对自己的身体和生活 有决定权。 目前研究间性人的方法 是源于 50 多年前某个人的 一项现已被揭穿的学术研究, 当时的结论是,你可以通过 瞒着孩子更改他们的生殖器, 并且一次又一次强化这种性别 去把他们抚养成任何性别的人。 它也源于把健康的间性变体 称为异常 或者失调。 这似乎也有道理。 如果你把某个事情说成失调, 就意味着需要修正。 它还源于对间性人的恐惧和污名, 源于对同性恋的憎恶、 变性恐惧症、性别歧视, 最终还源于我们的殖民历史。
I am not here to say that the categories of men and women don't exist. I'm saying, like most things in this world, it is more complicated than that. The world is complex, and we can choose to see that as beautiful, or we can choose to continue to deny the existence of that complexity, push people into artificial, binary boxes, fix what isn't broken and restrict our own field of vision.
我并不是说 男性和女性的分类不存在。 我是说,性别就像 这个世上很多其他事情一样, 要复杂的多。 世界是复杂的, 我们可以选择把复杂视为美好, 或者我们可以选择 继续否定那种复杂性的存在, 把人们推进虚假的、 二元的盒子里, 去修理没有坏的东西, 并且去限制我们自己的视野。
One of the challenges that intersex people face today is making ourselves visible and making ourselves safe at the same time. By that, I mean we are appealing to the humanity of lawmakers to make us safe whilst putting ourselves into the public eye, sharing our stories, trying to build community with people like us ... Even when it isn't safe to do so. For parents of intersex children listening and watching, for those in the audience who may become the guardians of intersex people, I want you to know I love my life, but it has not be free of issue, especially in relation to being intersex. No life is free of issue. All coins have two sides.
当前,间性人面临的挑战之一 是让我们被看到, 同时让我们自己安全。 也就是说,我们呼立法者的人道精神, 让我们安全, 同时把我们自己 置于公众的视野中, 分享我们的故事, 努力与像我们这样的人 共同建立社区…… 即便这样做并不安全。 对那些正在收听和观看 这段演讲的间性人的父母, 对在座的 可能成为间性人的监护者的各位, 我想让你们知道,我爱我的生活, 但这并非完全没有困难, 特别是对于间性人来说。 没有生活是没有难题的。 硬币均有双面。
On the one side, I have been humiliated in doctors' offices. I have stood in front of prospective partners and felt afraid and so not good enough. I have watched other women pass me in the street and imagine the ways that they were more woman than me, more human than me. I have questioned whether I have a place in this world.
硬币的一面是, 我曾在医生的办公室被羞辱过。 我曾在潜在的伴侣们面前 感到害怕, 觉得自己不够好。 我曾看着街上其他女士走过, 想象她们如何比我更像女人, 更像人类。 我怀疑过我是否在 这个世界上有立足之地。
On the other, I have been deeply loved for everything that I am, in friendship and romantically. I have learned compassion and empathy for a wider range of society. I have taken the time to love my body and not judge the bodies of others. I have developed a strength and a hope that would have been impossible without this particular life.
硬币的另一面是, 我的一切也曾深深地被爱着, 无论是在友情还是爱情中。 我学会了对广泛的社会群体 表达同情,怀有同理心。 我会花时间去爱自己的身体, 并且不去评判别人的身体。 我生出了一种力量和希望, 如果不是这种特殊的生活, 这些都是不可能的。
The instinct to protect children is instinctive and it's admirable, but the truth is that love, acceptance and refusing to bathe that child in shame will protect them more than trying to fix something that isn't broken. This is why it is in our interest to protect intersex people and make them visible. For as long as societies reinforce one form of acceptable, of "normal," everyone will face insecurity for being different in any way. Simply trying to erase variation, difference, builds shame.
保护孩子的本能 是天生的,也令人钦佩, 但事实上,爱、接纳, 并且拒绝让孩子沉浸在耻辱中, 远比试图修复完好的东西 更加能够保护他们。 这就是为何保护间性人, 让他们被人们看到 才符合我们的利益。 只要社会强化一种形式的接受, 一种形式的“正常”, 那么每个人都会因为在任何方面的 与众不同而面临不安全感。 只是试图消除变体和差异, 就会促成羞耻感。
Being intersex has not materialized the powers that I wished for as a teenager ... beyond being able to see where this false sex binary harms us all. It is my belief that if intersex people can gain equality, can be seen, can be accepted and can be loved, then we all will.
作为间性人,我并没有实现 自己在少年时所憧憬的超能力… 除了看到这种虚假的性别二元化 对我们所有人的伤害之外。 我相信, 如果间性人可以获得平等, 能够被看见, 能够被接受, 能够被爱, 那么我们所有人都可以做到。
Thank you.
谢谢。
(Applause and cheers)
(鼓掌和欢呼)